Thursday, February 2, 2012 7:34 AM, CST
written by CHERYL SCRUGGS
“We make it our goal to please Him.” (2 Corinthians 5:9)
It’s already Feb 2, 2012……..
Gosh, life speeds by so quickly, doesn’t it?
We always say that, don’t we, “where does the time go?”
I am sitting here, this morning, thinking about what I used to do with my time. The use of my time has changed, and has been completely consumed with what’s important and necessary at the moment. Shouldn’t it always be this way?
Our motto, for now, is “take 12 hours at a time.”
Kind of an interesting perspective, huh?
One I thought was a bit blown out of proportion, at first, but one I now live by.
Since I became a Christian, over 20 years ago, I’ve always said, “my goal is to please Him” in all that I do. I have really been tested these last couple of months as my goal hasn’t changed.
But I ask myself the question, “Do I pay full attention in the 12 hour increments of how I am pleasing Him?
“All” is a key word here, and it has caused me to think deeply about it as we make our way through the maze of this situation.
I ask myself the question, ” Do I please him in my heartache, in my sleepless night, when I’m joyful, when I’m angry, when I’m sad, when I have peace, when I sleep through the night, when I see Lo struggling?”
I don’t know if I do.
These last couple of weeks have been tough. Like I mentioned last week, we are making our way through the 5 stages of grief. Hard to say where each of us are on a given day, in a given minute. At this point, somewhere between denial, anger and bargaining, I think.
Last Saturday was a big day. Bittersweett.
Jeff, myself, Lo and Britt showed up at 9am at the ocularist. We didn’t know what to expect, other than it would be an all day process from 9am -5pm. Another new step….. the time had come for Lo to be fitted for her prosthetic eye.
So we proceeded through the day, one step at a time. All four of us would go into the room, and go through another step. Sometimes we waited in the waiting room for a while, other times we could leave for a while to walk around, or go to lunch.
She was fitted and measured. The ocularist carefully painted and shaped the new eye. By 5pm, it was done, and her new eye was in place. It is beautiful. Thank you God for providing.
We again met with the arm people this week. Again, another step. bittersweet……
Praise God there are options………
So through a different filter, we ask ourselves the question:
“Am I pleasing Him in all I do?”
It is a challenge for all of us, minute by minute, isn’t it?
Please continue to pray. Your prayers are so appreciated…..more than you know. Lo’s physical pain has subsided a great deal. It is now the emotional pain that is the tough one.